Little Talks

"There's an old voice inside my head, holding me back. Well tell her that I miss our little talks."

Hello my loveys,

I am currently obsessed what that song right now, and that line in particular. It really says a lot about what I've been dealing with as of late and the reason for my 5 month hiatus. Lets start at the beginning:

(Side note: There comes a time in every blogger's adventure, when you have to decided how much you really want to share with your readers. Do you choose to be completely honest and give full disclosure or do you choose to use your blog as a wall and reveal nothing about yourself. I am trying to keep a happy medium. I am a pretty honest and open person to begin with, but you don't need all the grisly details. I hope this is enough to keep you interested (: ........)

The beginning .... After three years I am once again single. I made the decision to go my own way for a while. I think it was pretty well decided, even though it hurt both of us very much, that things weren't working out the way that we'd hoped. We are still friendly and I wish nothing but the best for him and all the happiness in the world. He is a wonderful person, we just needed to fly our own course.

So after that I was pretty low for a while, didnt' really know where I was going or what I wanted to do any more. I lost a lot of drive and focus. I lost my desire to be around things food related and my grades started to slip .. And as they say, shit rolled down hill.

But it's not all sad I promise! I landed on my feet as I always do. I brushed myself off, shook the hair out of my eyes, and started walking again. I moved down to my Grandmother's for the summer to help her accomplish some of things she needs done at her house. It's bittersweet to be back in my hometown. I do love it down here, but I miss Michigan everyday. I'm still trying to figure out exactly what I want to do, or where I want to go with my life, but I am happy for the first time in a very long while.

This is going to be a new adventure for me but I don't know if I've ever been more excited about anything. I hope you all will enjoy the ride with me (:

Xo
-jay <3